Hello, 2009

Thursday, January 1, 2009

2008 had it's fair share of good, bad and awful. It goes without saying that I am beyond stoked that 2009 is here and I'm ready for a fresh start.

2008 became the end of life on earth for two of my closest grandparents. Both losses were shocking and very unexpected, and gave me my first real dose of loss in my life.

My parents moved away in 2008, leaving me to truly grow up and learn how to live day to day without my mom a phone call away as a last minute baby-sitter or grocery shopping partner.

I struggled with many personal demons in 2008, and I'm confident in saying that I have overcome them. Confusion over sexuality, battles with severe depression and a troubled relationship consumed my life for over half of 2008. I turned to partying and alcohol and shut everyone out. Not my proudest moment as a mother by far, but I'm so incredibly lucky that my wonderful husband stood by me through the worst of times and we are now proudly past those demons, together.

2008 made me the mother of a pre-schooler and a toddler instead of a toddler and a baby. My boys are the only ones, aside from my husband, who have stuck by my side no matter how bad it got and were always able to bring a smile to my face. I am so incredibly in love with them and couldn't imagine two more perfect children.

We got the shock of our lives in 2008 when the baby we never thought we would have was conceived. I won't lie and say it was easy at first, as we were both confused and scared and unsure if we could handle it. A third baby was not in our plans but we have embraced it with open hearts and are now beyond ecstatic about this new little life.

2008 left our family, like many others in America, struggling in this horrible economic crisis. But we thank our lucky stars that my husband still has a job, we still have our house and we still have each other. We will get through it, and I feel that things will get better sooner rather than later.

Hello, 2009. Nice to meet you. I hope we become great friends.

Blogged by Making A Modern Family at 10:15 AM  


riyan said...

Everyone battles demons, and I am so glad to hear that you have overcome yours.

It really does look like 2009 is going to be on the upswing for you.

I am excited to read more about your kiddos, your family and make a new bloggin' friend!

Fri Jan 02, 02:58:00 PM EST


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